Blessings

Sorry for the lack of updates. This blog has been so not productive this year and seriously this is a very shameful record. All in all, I would like to thank my dear Allah for His never ending blessings. I couldn't have feel any better than thinking of all the blessings and wonderful things that happened around me. Thank you Allah for everything!



I was overwhelmed when the ustazah asked me to be in charged for a play to be performed during the Maulidur Rasul celebration in school. Wow, me handling a play? I was really excited. But how am I going to get the students ready by Friday when I just can start practicing on Wednesday. It has been such a long time since my last time writing for a play and it was in early 2005 I guess. I kept thinking for something that would be meaningful yet acceptional to the students with their background. Seriously there are loads to put when thinking about our beloved ar-Rasul. Alhamdulillah, I managed to finish up the script by 9am on Wednesday. I rushed to reach school on 10am and only managed to give the students the script and their parts. and again alhamdulillah, the trainee teacher gladly replace my class so I can train the students. Though he was like, "it'll only be this time, right?". But on top of that, thumbs up to the students for being really cooperative and understanding. Though there are some of the students keep asking if they will receive anything for the performance, I kept reminding them that this performance is going to be our tribute to the prophet. Insya Allah the reward would be amazing and amazing reward can only be given by Allah.



I need to keep reminding the students to be serious and play their part seriously as they are delivering message to the other students from the play. Guess, they really enjoy acting in the battle with swords, wearing an arab turban (which I learned to wrap it through uTube) and trying to be superhero. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. Though there were some technical problems with the microphone and speakers (which are beyond our reach to handle it), I think everyone really enjoying it. The other students were excited to see the actors with arab costume anyways.



And here is such a beautiful song to remind us about our beloved prophet Muhammad. Posted before by my dear sis PuteriBonda. I planned to play this song during class but I had to leave the class earlier as a parent want to discuss with me about her child.



So here goes this very beautiful song, Al-Habib.




Laa Ilaha Illallah Muhammadun Rasoolullah
Alaihi Salatullah Wa Alihi Wal Ahibba (2x)

Shine your mercy like the sun
And be gracious as the earth
Let your kindness come like rain which choose not whom it falls upon

And let ocean deep your wisdom be
Your hearth and land spread in peace
Give yourself in love of him be like Al Habib

But in your deepest heal and in your deepest breath
Follow him in humility
Place your trust in the one, to whom creation turns
You'll find redemption and find peace.

Laa Ilaha Illallah Muhammadun Rasoolullah
Alaihi Salatullah Wa Alihi Wal Ahibba

Be a blazing fire of truth, be assuming full of peace
With the light of your sincerity, break the clouds of tyranny
Let your faith be like a blessed tree, give your shade to all who seek
May your root of truth indeed take your strength from Al-habib

Ya Nabi Salaam Alaik Ya rasool Salaam Alaik
Ya Habib Salaam Alaik Salawatullah Alaik

And all who turns to you will bring tranquillity
Contentment with Allah's decree
Give thanks for all what comes, be patient and revert
Some day you will return to Him

Laa Ilaha Illallah Muhammadun Rasoolullah
Alaihi Salatullah Wa Alihi Wal Ahibba

Hold fast to the company of the folk of certainty
Through the gates and through your love for them
May you be as one of them
He is gentle as the whispering breeze, spread solace to the world we're in
Let your heart and soul be narrative, give life and love to Al habib

Ya Nabi Salaam Alaik Ya Rasool Salaam Alaik
Ya Habib Salaam Alaik Salawatullah Alaik

And stand before Allah like nothing else exist.
And worship Him like you are seen
Be with all creation, in all your deeds and words
Let's know you help yourself to these

Laa Ilaha Illallah Muhammadun Rasoolullah
Alaihi Salatullah Wa Alihi Wal Ahibba

Yet when you master all of this
Forget not your neediness, we're it not for Allahs grace
None of this can be achieved
So be humble as the lonely earth, that all creatures walk upon
Be the slave of the most merciful, take your light from Al-Habib

So shine your mercy like the sun
Send your light across the earth
Let your kindness flow like rivers
Quenched the thirst to all who come

And let mountain strong your spirit be
Let your heart melt down of love for him
Take the roads that leads to him
May you be with Al-Habib

Ya Nabi Salaam Alaik Ya Rasool Salaam Alaik
Ya Habib Salaam Alaik Salawatullah Alaik (2x)

Laa Ilaha Illallah Muhammadun Rasoolullah
Alaihi Salatullah Wa Alihi Wal Ahibba (2X)

Breathe in

Another day just begun
marking less days I have in this world.
Coming closer to the end of my time
yet I keep questioning how I have become.

I know I might be stagnant quite a lot
not improving and keep stumbling at the same spot
but giving up I will not
'till I found the way out, I keep asking God.

I woke up every day with guilt
because yesterday might have spaces I did not fill
and it caused my heart withered
gasping for air so I can again breathe.

And today Allah woke me up again
with healthy body and wonderful mind
but am I going to make use of these with iman
or am I again going to lose the battle with shaytan

'Cause each day Allah put a reminder
do improve yourself, I am here, I shall be near
and do ask Me to make you stronger
but you need to help yourself to make you better!


Yaumul Jummu'ah
Jabal Salim
23 years and 363 days fi al-Ardh

That one word

That one word...

Hey, that sounds so familiar!

110:1-3

Fa sabbih bihamdi rabbika wastaghfirhu

Subhanallah

Alhamdulillah

Astaghfirullah

Bermain dengan selamat

"Cikgu, saya nak lari dari rumah lepas sekolah ni..." si gadis kecil tiba-tiba datang mengambil tempat di hadapan saya. Matanya masih sambil-sambil melihat ke papan putih, menyalin nota penuh cermat di buku tulis.

"Kenapa, tension ke?" Saya sendiri tidak tahu bagaimana respon yang sesuai untuknya.

"Mak marah...hanset ayah ambik..geramnya!" si gadis berhenti menulis dan melihat kepada saya.

"Cikgu, saya nak tunjuk satu benda kat cikgu ni!" Mukanya berubah. Sangat teruja. Terus dia berdiri di sebelah saya dan membuka dompet.

"Tapi cikgu janji jangan bagitau siapa-siapa tau!" Saya mengangguk. Senyumnya kian melebar.

"Tengok ni!!!" si gadis menunjukkan bungkusan kecil berwarna merah jambu. Tentu saja saya tidak pernah melihatnya, tetapi melihat jenamanya saja sudah membuat jantung seperti terhenti seketika. Playsafe.

"Astaghfirullah! Mana awak dapat ni?"

"Member bagi..." Senyumnya kian melebar. Wajah yang cukup teruja.

"Awak tau ke apa ni?" Saya saja berbasa-basi.

"Tau..kalau nak main tapi tak nak mengandung. Pakailah ni! Mulanya saya tak tau, tapi bila member cakap ni apa, saya sukalah!"

"Hm, kenapa awak nak ada benda ni?"

"Saya sukalah cikgu, saya ada banyak lagi kat rumah...member-member saya pun ramai yang ada."

"Awak pernah ke??"

"Eh, cikgu. Maruah mesti kena pandai jaga. Saya kawan je dengan diorang. Tapi tak buat pun. Ramai je member saya hisap gam semua..tapi saya tak buat. Pil-pil tu pun saya ada je..tapi saya tak makan pun." si gadis menjawab bersahaja.

"Awak ni, buang je la benda tu..tak elok pun awak simpan. Kalau orang jumpa tak pasal-pasal kena tuduh macam-macam."

"Cikgu, nak seringgit. Nak beli air waktu rehat."

"Ok, tapi janji buang dulu benda tu..sekarang juga." Si gadis akur.

"dan... kena janji balik rumah lepas sekolah. Jangan pergi tempat lain! (jangan lari dari rumah)"

"Ok. Janji!"

Not seringgit bertukar tangan. Dengan gembira, si gadis berlari-lari menuju ke kantin.

Tahun baru 2011.

Lebih baguskah langkah kita?

Atau kita masih memilih untuk bermain dengan selamat?

Kemahuan diri menjadi yang utama dan memastikan semua kemahuan diri dicapai dengan selamat...begitu?

"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang-orang yang beriman akan jiwa mereka dan harta benda mereka dengan (balasan) bahawa mereka akan beroleh Syurga, (disebabkan) mereka berjuang pada jalan Allah maka (di antara) mereka ada yang membunuh dan terbunuh. (Balasan Syurga yang demikian ialah) sebagai janji yang benar yang ditetapkan oleh Allah di dalam (Kitab-kitab) Taurat dan Injil serta Al-Quran dan siapakah lagi yang lebih menyempurnakan janjinya daripada Allah? Oleh itu, bergembiralah dengan jualan yang kamu jalankan jual belinya itu dan (ketahuilah bahawa) jual beli (yang seperti itu) ialah kemenangan yang besar."

(9:111)

siapa 'mereka' ni?

"(Mereka itu ialah): Orang-orang yang bertaubat, yang beribadat, yang memuji Allah, yang mengembara (untuk menuntut ilmu dan mengembangkan Islam), yang rukuk, yang sujud, yang menyuruh berbuat kebaikan dan yang melarang daripada kejahatan, serta yang menjaga batas-batas hukum Allah dan gembirakanlah orang-orang yang beriman (yang bersifat demikian)."

(9:112)

The unspoken words

Sepertinya sang pahlawan

yang gagah berani

dengan kuda perang yang berlari kencang

sehingga gemercik api dalam setiap hentakan.

Lalu di manakah kau saat ini

adakah seperti perannya sang pahlawan

berdiri megah

cuma buat tatapan

dan tempat bertenggek burung-burung

sebelum melepaskan najis jatuh ke tanah.

Persisnya kau seperti patung batu

yang terampil gagah

tapi tidak punya upaya

membersih najis berselepat di wajah.

Di kala orang ramai melihatmu

berdiri tanpa lelah

duduknya tidak betah

kata-katanya meluncur petah

namun tak siapa tahu

saat itu sebenarnya imanmu di kondisi paling lemah

lalu di situ peranmu

mengemudi diri sendiri

dengan tarbiyah dzatiyah.

Kembalikanlah dirimu kepada Allah

ayuh, pancung segala jahiliyah!

agar kau bisa bernafas tanpa mengah

terus-terusan menginfakkan dirimu untuk dakwah.

Tugu Diponegoro, Monas.

Jakarta.

Disember 2010

Kue mochi dan teh poci

Selembut kue mochi

sehangat teh poci

dan itulah kalian

juga ukhuwwah yang berdampingan.

Di sana aku belajar erti cita dan cinta

saat manusia menggelar daerah itu dunia kelas ketiga

daerah itu tetap istimewa

biar manusia lain memandangnya hina

kerana daerah itu bisa menggegar jiwa-jiwa

dan membangun manusia berperisai taqwa.

Dalam kedinginan bayu pagi

yang mencucuk hingga ke sendi

aku berharap agar waktu bisa berhenti

dan aku tetap dapat berlama-lama di sini

tapi masa tetap tidak mahu berkompromi

dan aku tidak bisa untuk menanti

seperti saja mahu kutinggalkan separuh hatiku di sini

agar bisa merasa kehangatan teh poci dan kelembutan kue mochi

dan berdakapan dalam ukhuwwah sepenuh hati.

Make me strong

My Lord show me right from wrong

Give me light make me strong

I know the road is long

Make me strong

Sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I've lost touch

I know the road is long

Make me strong